[locked to her girl friends]

[layering]

Guess who made out with Ben at the Halloween party?

No, it was not The Stalker.

I know that was the conclusion that you both automatically jumped to.

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[allthesigns.livejournal.com]

Seeing as how I am really not good with being open about it myself, I know how that goes and am honored.

And will listen whenever and wherever. :)

I think if it didn't matter so much, it wouldn't be hard. It's always going to be a risk either way. It's good you know what works for you. I'd say that's a step up from not knowing. Sometimes it's the not knowing that can get at you.

I don't know. I'm bad at this like I said, but if there's anything I've learned as an angel of death is people tend to regret what they didn't let themselves do, for whatever reason.

[edgeofhorizons.livejournal.com]

Thank you. :) You're a really cool person, Sarah, and I seriously appreciate it.

Yeah, that's true. If it were all easy, it wouldn't matter. I mean I have been with guys before, and I never really put any thought into it, but Ben matters to me more than any guy has before. But the guy in my last and really only official relationship mattered, and I screwed that up.

But I definitely will keep that in mind. Thank you. I don't usually live with regrets but I do have a few. I don't want to pile on any more.

[allthesigns.livejournal.com]

The past doesn't have to define you though, does it? It changes you and it can help with what you do next but it isn't who you have to be anymore if you don't want.

Everyone makes mistakes. Everyone screws up sometimes.

It doesn't mean you don't deserve good things, and I mean that in a general sense not a relationship sense.

[edgeofhorizons.livejournal.com]

No, it's not really that it's defining me, but it's complicated. I don't know if I can put it to words.

But I know what you mean. It's not even like I think that those mistakes are who I am. Just I am who I am. Which sounds like an excuse and maybe it is. I don't know. Just I do get what you're saying, and thank you.

Thank you. You deserve good things too, and I hope we both get them. I really do.

[allthesigns.livejournal.com]

You don't have to. Complicated works, and if something really matters, it's going to be that much harder to know what to do. You don't need to explain it to me. I don't think it sounds like an excuse. I think it sounds like you really care.

I'll hope so, too.

I'm here if you need to talk some more.