[locked to her girl friends]

[layering]

Guess who made out with Ben at the Halloween party?

No, it was not The Stalker.

I know that was the conclusion that you both automatically jumped to.

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[edgeofhorizons.livejournal.com]

Good. I'd want you to feel it. :) I feel them right back. They are warm and fuzzy.

It is the best advice, I think. For our age, you rock at it anyway. I will make my own decision though, I promise. I don't think I could do anything else, but I know I need guidance sometimes.

Thanks, Rachelness.

I know you do, and I can. You never let me feel anything else from you.

[gatherslight.livejournal.com]

I do, and I'm glad you feel them right back. And I'm glad you told me. More importantly, glad you had a good night.

Don't lose sight of that in spite of everything else. Well, guidance can still sometimes come in the way of ourselves. When we let things get in the way, it can get a bit cluttered but if we try hard and listen, really listen to ourselves, you'll find you don't... really need that guidance in the end.

Other than from yourself.

Good. I'm here for anything and whenever, okay? Love you.

[edgeofhorizons.livejournal.com]

I did. It was a really amazing night. You had a good night too, right? Nothing too horrible happening other than the stalker thing, but that was something that happened to Jeremy. So you could kind of step back and appreciate the hilarity of it as much as I am sympathetic to his plight.

I will try not to lose sight of that, but I'm not always the best at that. I can try that too, but I don't really trust my own... self guidance either or trust myself to trust what I'm hearing from myself? Something like that. I've made some fantastically, epic-ly bad decisions before listening to what I want.

I know you are. I love you too. So much.

[gatherslight.livejournal.com]

I did! Of course I did. We were all together, that's pretty much all I need to knwo a good night's guaranteed, as long as everyone else is having fun. Oh, man. I heard about that. I was in the restroom when everything broke loose, but Ben told me about it later.

All we can ask of anyone is for them to try. I know, but there's what you want in the moment and there's what you know is best for you. They're not always the same thing. And those fantastically, epic-ly bad decisions can be learned from, Jess.

Sooner or later you're going to have to learn to trust yourself a bit more.

[edgeofhorizons.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's usually all I need to know for the same. Everyone had a really good time, and it was overall an awesome night. Yeah, it was pretty wow. There aren't words for that kind of crazy.

It is. I know. I keep reminding myself of that. It's hard for me to tell the difference though sometimes which makes me seem like I'm completely out of touch with reality or something. I will try to peel back the layers of the onion a la Jess. They can be or so they say. I want to learn from them.

Maybe. At least a little more.

[gatherslight.livejournal.com]

It sounds like.

I feel bad for the poor guy. It could get really ugly really fast, but I'm hoping it's the kind of crazy that might go away with time, or might actually be intimidated by the thought of restraining orders and arrests, if nothing else.

You're not out of touch with reality. [small smile] Emotions are just tricky like that. Layers and layers of them make them a little bit trickier.

What mistake exactly are you scared of repeating?

[edgeofhorizons.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I'm hoping that it would be the same. Jeremy doesn't deserve that kind of stuff, but I don't know if anything will work beyond just physically keeping her from me.

The layers that we talked about. I am an onion. ;) Yeah, they do make it trickier all the time.

Pretty much the million or so that I made with Erik. Among many, many others.

I know I should learn from them. Maybe someday I will.

[gatherslight.livejournal.com]

Seriously. I don't envy his position at all, but I'm still hoping it all resolves with minimal damage done. She seems... not harmless, obviously, as stalking is not harmless, but genuinely out of her mind, so I can't quite not be sympathetic to an extent.

You are a very lovely onion, yes. :)

You don't have to be that person anymore.

It's up to you. It always has been.

[edgeofhorizons.livejournal.com]

She seems as harmless as a stalker can seem, I think. I hope it ends up for the best how ever it ends up.

Thank you very much. :) I try.

I know.

Thank you, Rachel. <3

[gatherslight.livejournal.com]

I know you do.

You're welcome, Jess. <3