You offer me alot just by listening. Seriously. I'm not always good at the being open with how I am feeling thing.

Fff, see, that's good advice. I will do that. It might be hard to figure out which one is the right one, but I think it'll be better than not really thinking about this at all.

Which is what my instinct says. Don't think, just do. Which no, in the long run, where I am concerned anyway (it works for a lot of people but not me), that's not a good thing to do, not with Ben, not if I don't want to hurt him.