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Hey, Jess here. Looks like my phone is missing again so leave me a message. I'll call you back when I find it. Maybe. ;)

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[...oh. oh that's. ;;] yeah, i did. i could feel it even when i tried not to. how did you find out? [LMFAO rjkl;ea we love it. >>]

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he asked me to come over a few days after prom and told me himself. he's avoiding me and he's avoiding noah and i'm still left wondering how the hell i missed something like that.

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[jrkl;a ffffff, she bites on her lip as she reads] im relieved he was able to tell you at least. rachel, you didn't see that noah had feelings for you, right? and you've known him longer. i think w/ best friends especially ones who have been friends for so long it's harder to tell

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[ ] yeah, i appreciated he was honest with me above all but i think he was expecting nothing to change and me to just go back to like before i didn't know, and i don't know how to do that. maybe. just. it's a mess.

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honesty is better, but a difficult thing will always be difficult even if he wanted it to not be. there's no way it wouldn't have changed things to have it in the open. are you okay?

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i didn't want it to change things too much. who he is to me and our friendship wouldn't go away at all because of it, or i wouldn't want it to. i don't know. i just miss when everything was simpler, you know?

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i know, and it doesn't have to change things too much. i mean he's had these feelings for you, and you've both been best friends still. nothing really changed there. he has to know that that won't change though. i'm sure he does. he hasn't talked to you at all since?

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no. he all but told me to leave, so i did, and ever since it's just been avoidance central. any other circumstance and i'd be pushing it but in this case, i'm just going to wait it out. [ And that's not Rachel fishing for advice or anything, as much as talking helps. She's not going to force the issue, even if she's always knocked on Seth's door and not let him push away too much. It's different this time. ]

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god, that makes it even more difficult trying to figure out how to fit in there or where you do now with what you know or what's best for him or for yourself, and it must be harder not having heard from him [Jess likes that she can come to her and talk about it and that it helps. She wants to be able to help Rachel too, and she knows this situation is just so completely different in so many ways. ;;]

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it's worse, not hearing from him. or from someone in general when you're -- well, you know. [ She doesn't have to tell Jess since they went through it, and it's worse to have the radio silence than the fighting. Rachel would so much rather the fighting. ] Noah says to give him some time before we both go over there together, but I don't... know how that would go.

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yeah, i do. we both do. it's worse than there being that hurt in person at least then you know. [You know they're okay, you know what they're thinking or feeling, your mind cant insert the worst possibilities for the truth.] if it'd make him more uncomfortable or just make things explode, i don't know. you and noah know him better than anybody, but...

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but this is a different situation and unexplored territory, yeah. those were my thoughts exactly. there's that 'but' nagging at me and so i don't know, either. [ All-around angel of knowledge and know-it-all extraordinaire, and she does not know this time. ] it's just such a mess. i don't expect you to have the answers. god knows i don't have them either, but i had to vent.

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yes, there's that is there loud and proud. i could check in on him. not that i would tell him anything obviously or that he'd tell me anything, but just visiting as a friend. [she'll probably do it anyway but.] rachel, i don't think anyone would know. it really is a mess, but it's not hopeless, okay. you've all been friends all this time while he had feelings for you. that's not going to go away. hey, venting is encouraged, and you need to come spend the night too when you get the chance.

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i would... really appreciate that. i know ben would want to check in on him too, and i just don't think he should be alone. [ the demon voice gets loud, tells him things that just aren't true, and if he's alone long enough -- ] i know. i'm not going to let this be something that can't be fixed, but maybe it just needs time. and hey, i'm all for spending the night sometime soon. i could use a boy-free night.

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yeah, he definitely would have been checking in on him, but i don't know if seth's said anything or what's going on there. i don't think so either. [being alone especially with the demon is very, very bad.] i will help how ever i can, okay? it might. time can be really useful. awesome. :) you and me this saturday to sunday, please.

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thanks, jess. i know you will. and i wouldn't miss it. i'll be there. :)